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then all of a sudden, for some odd, unknown reason, it gets better. once again, you start catching them looking at you from across the room. again, they go out of their way to sit by you, to speak to you, to make you laugh and smile. they once again get that beautiful look in their eyes when they're near you. they start to look at you with wonder and awe again. when you laugh, that obnoxious, loud laugh of yours, they just gaze at you with admiration and hold back a giant smile.
but you cant say anything. or, you feel like you can't say anything because you don't want to ruin it. but some days, those days when you feel their eyes burning into your neck...you turn and take in the look on their face, hoping to read their heart, praying that you'll see the wonderment that was there before all the bad stuff happened...you just want to grasp their face in both of your hands and kiss the past away.
xoxo,
candace
I'm honestly tearing up right now. You couldn't have said this better and I'm just sitting reading the words slowly over and over. I just...don't know what to say except that this is just so very beautiful in its own way.
ReplyDelete~gloria {lia}
www.gloria-theblog.blogspot.com
i can't put my thoughts into words.
ReplyDeletedang this is so incredibly accurate.
ReplyDeleteOhmyword, this. THIS. you literally described my last two months. completely.
ReplyDeleteyour writing is AMAZING!
this is us.
ReplyDeleteexcept, you know. he doesn't like me back.
and we've never had any major disagreements/fights.
but this is how i feel when we see each other and we don't know when we're going to see each other.
he sees me, makes eye contact, waves or says hello, and if my feet cannot fathom steps he comes to me, gives me a hug, asks me how i'm doing, tells me he's glad to see me, says i look nice, etc. and there are so many flutterings in my stomach that i cannot fathom into butterflies or stardust. i just.
oh good Lord, candace.
you just broke my fangirl.
i mean, srsly.
love you, and this.
I am officially speechless.
ReplyDeleteThose three paragraphs just go together so well and...*hand motions* It's just one big post of sweetness and it's not even the mushy kind it's so cute and I just love this post so much...I love this post so much that you made me write a run-on sentence.
Love,
~Jenny
AODLKDLA. OH gosh, my heart.
ReplyDeleteStory of my life.
ReplyDeleteThanks for this, so good!
I'm speechless.
ReplyDeleteSo nice... and true.
ReplyDeletethisistrue. at least I hope it's true, that it all passes away someday and things can go back to how they were. aahhhh the ambiguity of the internet, but for real. I'm getting heart palpitations. hoo boy. okay I'm done now.
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